The Wherefores.

People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily. 
Zig Ziglar 

After reading a post on the 12wbt forum and this blog post http://bellaxthree.wordpress.com/2012/05/09/100-reasons-why-i-want-to-lose-weight/

I decided to make my own list of reasons for doing the 12wbt and change my life. I can come back to this daily and it will be a reminder, my motivation to live and achieve FREEDOM!

Mish says 'motivation is like a bad boy friend, never there when you need it'. So I am posting this so it is here when I need it.

1. To be the best version of me I can be
2. To let go of the past version of myself and embrace the healthy version
3. To become strong in mind
4. To be challenged
5. To have more fun
6. To not be thinking about my weight and size and food ALL the time
7. To complete each and every milestone
8. To strengthen my willpower muscle - to make it the strongest muscle I have!
9. To be healthy
10. To reduce my BMI and fat % to within a healthy range
11. To never have that ‘You need to lose weight‘ conversation with a medical professional 
12. To lose the belly & back fat
13. To be able to run
14. To complete a fun run that I run the whole way
15. To learn to love moving more
16. To be able to do push ups, sit ups, wall sits and planks.
17. To become strong in body
18. To attend gym classes 
19. To ride a bike again
20. To meet new people and become more social instead of hiding
21. To lower my cardiovascular risk
22. To reduce my risk of type 2 diabetes
23. To minimise musculoskeletal issues as I age
24. To add more years to my life 
25. To kick the unhealthy food addiction
26. To find new yummy healthy things to eat
27. To learn moderation
28. To NOT be thinking about food EVERY minute of EVERY day - Life is just not food.
29. To look like I belong in my kayak.
30. To have room to sleep in our swag without over-hanging the side.
31. To not be heavier, bigger, wider than my partner
32. To be able to keep up with my partner
33. To be proud of me so others can be proud of me.
34. To feel better
35. To look fantastic in photos
36. So my clothes fit better
37. So I have a choice of any clothes from any store
38. To go on a shopping spree to buy whatever I like, not restricted to ‘Big Girl’ stores
39. To look better
40. To not be self conscious about how I look whenever I leave the house
41. To attend functions where dressing up is required
42. So I am not always self conscious about my stomach
43. To confidently wear a dress
44. To not hide from the camera or cringe when my photos is taken
45. To be able to experiment more with fashion
46. To feel comfortable in my own skin
47. To not have to suck my gut in
48. To not dread photos from special occasions
49. To feel comfortable to do any activity I want, that I wont break anything and that I will fit.
50. To get a regular towel around me.
51. To not be self conscious when eating in public and not think people are looking and thinking “If I was as fat as you I would not be eating THAT!“
52. To wear sleeveless tops and dresses and not be self conscious
53. To treat myself to gorgeous lingerie and not be self conscious about walking into a lingerie shop
54. To  sit in any chair without checking it first
55. To not be embarrassed about any part of my body
56. To have nothing holding me back from living.
57. To wear clothes that are not black
58. To play with my grand kids for longer
59. To not have 'morbidly obese' on my death certificate
60. To have knees
61. To have only one chin
62. To walk without my thighs rubbing together
63. Because I am sick of the 'one day it will happen'
64. To spend more time in the beautiful outdoors
65. To stop making excuses
66. To learn how to plan for exercise and a healthy lifestyle
67. To learn new life affirming habits to replace the life draining ones
68. To learn to not feel guilty about my bad choices, accept them for what they are and move on.
69. To learn alternatives to eating from boredom or emotion
70. To have more energy
71. To not be so tired
72. To be able to throw out/give away/sell my larger sizes clothing
73. To not have to worry about weight restrictions for things like gliding, forest flying fox etc.
74. So my shorts don't ride up as I walk
75. To wear shorts comfortably
76. To decrease my down moods due to being fed up with myself and my body
77. To do something with my sister and get to know her better.
78. To encourage my sister along her journey.
79. So I can never say - I have nothing to wear
80. To be 'normal'
81. To not be comfortable with failure
82. Because this is important to me and I want to experience the success of becoming a healthier fitter person.
83. To learn to overcome the negative thoughts that tell me I can't
84. To move more easily and participate more
85. To reduce the amount of injuries due to carrying so much weight
86. To form JFDI habits
87. To lose weight and become healthy
88. To win the mindset battles
89. To develop a life affirming weekly routine rather than a 'last minute louis' one
90. To NOT be puffed out 
91. To be involved in a team sport if I chose to be
92. To get the control back
93. To reduce stress
94. To be physically capable of doing the gardening, even though I may not want to
95. To be honest with myself
96. To go to the pool/beach without the embarrassment
97. To have the support of others on the same journey
98. To get inspiration and a push from others when I need it
99. To explore my limits

100. To reach all of these goals so I can tick them off my list and use the massive amounts of energy it is taking for other goals.